Before He Turned 1

So Monkey turning one was very bitterweet for me. I felt so excited to be able to say I had a son who was "1" yet so emotional knowing my baby was no longer a baby. The year flew by ridiculously fast and I feared I did not take enough pics or write down enough stuff in his baby book or document milestones. I felt overwhelmed and even though party planning had been going on for months, when August came, it hit hard. I would cry working on stuff and felt helpless he was so independent and I felt like he did not need me anymore. I am sure I sounded like a lunatic to my family at times but he was my baby and I dreaded the 20th when he would turn 1.